I used to write a lot and publsh a lot (web pages, public forums, mailing lists, or paper publication for communities), until one day I realized that it's so easy for everybody to voice nowadays that very few people have the time to listen. Then I decided to stop writing and start reading.
I read others' works, and read my own early works. And I learned a lot about others as well as myself. I realized that most of my writing was just to impress instead of to contribute. Even when what I wrote happens to be helpful for somebody, I would be so eager to take the credit, fearing those helped forget to be thankful or show respect to me.Such attitude didn't make one truely happy after all. However, my habit of wanting to impress others has been so rooted that the ego of mine has always rationalized and found excuses for me. It took me many years to realize that I have this habit, then it took me a long time to be able to admit that I have this habit, and it took me even longer to really see why it's no good for myself.
Now I start to write again, and I hope this time, I am more aware of what I write and why I write.